SymMetrical

I pretend to remember memories of splendor The fistful of memories returned to the sender I can feel her She emerged - bathed in gold And I sat next to her everyday I remember when you used to watch me write I can see her She waited on the threshold but she was still human I remember when we used to fight I can hear her She talked for a million years and I had all the time to listen I remember when it wasn't right I can taste her And Everything is so real AND I DO NOT CARE I remember when you used to say "good-night" I pretend to remember memories of splendor The fistful of memories returned to the sender

Football jerseys in the street I'm sick of all the cell-phoned bleeding beats But too bad there's tooth decay The river-rafting trip's delayed till may Hey Make my way through museum-mall Grand Total shows and I start to fall In to pre-paid circus show The freaks and the fellows all in a row No way in @#!*% I'll drive today Because my parents think I'm insane Rain Come again some other day Or at least try to wash away the pain

Filth The clamor of the vegetable race Working for the daily                     the monthly                      they annual bread, in case In case the farm starts losing livestock But it can be replaced                     replaced by another man                     who move in his place And just before                        you hang up your suit                    or you hang from your tie you start to make mistakes and sometimes you even LIE OR just to make a blip on the radar of life You take off your mask                     and You take out your knife But the children in the park run screaming away Bec...

I heard through the walls while you talked that night. I couldn't hear the word, but I heard you cry. I laid on the bed, and I stared at the ceiling. I felt like shit, how have you been feeling? I'm sorry for feeling the way I feel. I'm sorry there are some things that words can't heal. I'm sorry that you're sorry that I feel like shit. I'm sorry that you're sorry that I can't help it. If you're alright, that's all that matters. I don't mind if my own blood splatters. If you're alright, that's all that matters. I don't mind if my rib cage shatters. If you're alright, then I'm fine. It really doesn't matter that I want to die. If you're alright, then I'm fine. Don't you worry, all these scars will fade in time. - Tristan B. P.S. This is also a song now. https://soundcloud.com/outdated-3d/sorry-that-youre-sorry ...

Once upon a lifetime, lost forever The Suns, and Moons, and Stars were born And among them Swirled into frame; humble and small Was Little Blue Planet; that's what it was called The Little Blue Planet was very smart It had land It had seas And the Little Blue Planet was riddled with trees And The Sun and The Moon were both happy Day in and Day out Sun would watch LBP But when Night-time arrived It was Moon's time to shine And The Little Blue Planet felt safe And then time would pass While dancing with the stars LBP did not notice; and neither did Mars That life was created (But life would leave scars) The Little Blue Planet had thought she made friends But these friends had strange ways of showing it The creatures were small and stupid And they hated each other (And they hated LBP) The Sun and The Moon tried to tell LBP That her small, stupid friends were not all that they seemed And The Stars formed shapes above her To warn of things to co...

We dig up Bodies in the back And lay them out along the daisies and dirt It doesn't hurt We judge and ridicule their clothes And sit them down for tea and scones But then we suddenly realize That Sometimes Bodies Lie We rake the garden in the dark And plant our plans to grow when things smooth out The neighbors shout We jump the fence and pick the lock And take our neighbors for a walk And with their throats cut out, they won't Scream, or shout, or chat about We bury bodies in the back And try to tell each other everything's fine We've still got time I judge and ridicule her clothes And she sits down for skin and bones But then we suddenly realize That we're all bleeding lies 

The kids in class took a nap today And they dreamed dreams of never turning back But we knew we couldn't let go. The teachers in a row. They wrapped us in a bow. The highway was filled today The working men sealed in just like sardines They were looking at the totaled car He was at the bar. But he had gone too far. I hurt my feet walking home today The streets fell away tearing both my soles The street lights had turned from red to green But it wasn't me. I couldn't risk being seen.

last night i'd thought about kissing you and then cutting my throat i'd slump down onto you and bleed out you would hold my dead body and cry for me it would be so romantic - Rain B.

Morning coffee 5-5:30 Freezing shower echoed singing Family sleeping Late for work KTLA two bran muffins Morning music used car salesman stuck in traffic car horns blaring   cubicle      cuubicel   q-bbickle dill pickle 9:00 home at last how'd the day go by so fast?

Many, many years ago On an island far away Kings and Queens had ruled the land Where you and I both stayed Neither of us could recollect How we found each other or ended up there on the sand hand in hand Back then, many years ago Our minds could run astray And get lost among the wilderness Where you and I both stayed And no-one had a boat to build or a train to catch or a kite to fly because we were together and wrapped up by the sky Many, many years ago on an island, on the sand I was king and you were queen Together we ruled the land

In that fire, they'd laid. Every letter. Every photo.  Every trace of you. The embers kissed the carpet as the soot filled the air. It was so comforting — To erase my past in a warm blaze and kill every memory of you. In that fire, you'd died. Every hour. Ever minute. Every second of you. Your kiss left my face as your scent filled the air. It was so comforting — To leave my past and receive the goodbye that I never got from you. - Tristan B.

The clocks stopped ticking ever since you left. The grass stopped growing, and the flowers stopped blooming. The sun stopped rising, ever since you left. The light stopped shining, and the moon stopped hiding. The clouds stopped pouring ever since you left. The ceiling stopped leaking, and the trees stopped dripping. The fire stopped burning ever since you left. The flames stopped roaring, and the ash stopped falling. My life stopped moving ever since you left. I never stopped crying, and I never started living. - Rain B.

Today, when dismissed You talked to me For the first time In a long time Then you asked me All about her And what happened And how I felt And I told you Not to worry I did not fall Or scrape both knees Then I asked you All about him And what happened And how you felt And you told me I was lucky Because you fell And scraped both knees Then you showed me All your bruises And I saw you For the first time You and I then Walked together For the first time In a long time 

You pulled me aside today and  Asked me to dance and I said, “Maybe I’ll dance tomorrow.” You called me today and  Invited me to go out and I said, “Maybe I’ll go tomorrow.” You tucked me in today and Told me to sleep and I said, “Maybe I’ll sleep tomorrow.” You cooked for me today and Told me to eat and I said, “Maybe I’ll eat tomorrow.” You tugged at me today and Begged me to stay and I said, “Maybe I’ll stay tomorrow.” You sat next to me today and Held me tight and  I said,  “Maybe I’ll be okay tomorrow.”  You held my hand today and I cried on your shoulder and You said Nothing because you understood. - Tristan B. 

Not a day goes by I don't wish That the dreams that I dream should come true But sometimes I get scared Because I don't know If the truth Is something I can go through And I don't know If what I've felt before Was love Or a knot in my side Or a knife in my back And I stop to think Is there a difference? I took the long way home today To think But I'm getting off track I guess if you think about it It's a pretty funny thing To be alone In a whole world of people All lost in space And I guess if you think about it It's a pretty scary thing To live on a rock Falling forever Where we try to find our place I wish that there was something Where if I watched it Or read it, or heard it It would tell me why And things would make sense And I can't understand how someone could make everything so clear, yet so complex I just cannot live at someones expense

You are sitting on the sand you have traveled to the beach and yet you still wonder why things stay out of reach Buried beneath rock and stone a chasm lies beyond imagination beyond comprehension beyond comparison You are sinking in the sand You have escaped to the beach Why did you leave you dreams out of reach? And as you sink through the sand you begin to fall and you fall away from fear, from responsibility, from identity and you look to see what's left and you find nothing You are swept up by the ocean You are deserted on a beach Why do you find yourself                      so out of reach? Why aren't you cold?             Or bleeding?                 Or crying?               Or wanting? You have built a house And you live on the beach Forever alone and       ...

Black pen, microphone Toothbrush, telephone White cup, Yellow cup, Plain glass cup Ipod, blue case Red comb, iron mace  three Ticonderoga boxes Usb, flash cards  nail clippers, coins in jars Glue stick, chap stick, Red sharpie Big Jar, little jar Headphones, plastic car Acer, tic tacs, seven business cards Pair of glasses, Star Wars Ink pen, ruler three highlighters, one wallet, blue sharpie Zelda and the Minish Cap Picture frame, Hirule map White out, movie ticket, one desk lamp

Why should I be so afraid When Monday is another day We walk inside and we try to hide From the truth that brought us here Why can't I go back to bed When Tuesday brings me hope instead We settle down and we all look 'round At the faces staring back Why should I want so much more When Wednesday's plastered to the floor We try to speak with minds still weak While they sing songs instead Why can't others talk to me When Thursday's looking awfully green We staple eyes to tests revised While we just want them shut Why do hours pass so slow When Friday teeters to and fro With MTV and 420 We slowly bleed to death

Why can't we look at things too closely Or feel Or tell Or taste them closely Those you bite, bite back...well           mostly Why can't we get what we think we deserve? Why can't we make them understand Our friends and freindliers understand That we're not as common as grains of sand Why can't our memories be preserved? Sometimes at night, I try to pretend I like to not be scared pretend And think of all the time we'll spend And I try not to feel so cold

I’d be really happy in your warm embrace, To see that lovely smile on your face. I want the unbridled flutterings from your kiss.  I want to feel that incomparable bliss. I’d be really happy just to be with you. I’d like to see all there is to see with you. I want to become all I could be with you. I want to live the life I conceived with you.  I’d be really happy, but I’m afraid I’m not. I can’t live this life like I had thought.  You couldn’t love me, and I always knew.  Oh, how I wish it weren’t true. I’d be really happy, but I can’t be anymore. I can’t ignore what you’ve said like I had before. Inside rests a heart so tired and so sore.  It pounds in my chest, but what for? - Tristan B. 

A silent rotation A manifestation The home of temptation    of lust              and of malice                             and hatred and sadness All lost in translation and drowning in madness       

Such a bitter sting, Pulling out shards of everything. Every cursed day and every damned night. All that raged tucked away inside and all that fear tucked away from sight. One by one. Break. Break it from your skin. Release it all in a fit of anger and ecstasy. One By One. Hacking away at your insides, Wreaking devastation through the physical. One sad, dry-eyed husk, bearing fissures from the shards they bore into you. - Tristan B.

The Dark The Dark Still Awake Is There Nothing Left To Take? Are There No More Bones To Break? The Dark The Dark It's Getting Late To Hammer Nails Into the Stake To Leave Another Brain To Bake The Dark The Dark I Was A Fake To Leave You Lying Cold...In Wake To Not Believe Your Mind Could Shake Away From The World Beside The Lake The Dark The Dark A Body Aches

Basic Necessities come in 6 packs and 12’s Which are stocked and re-stocked on the very same shelves Day in, day out-From nine to five Our basic necessities are re-supplied And we drive and we park and we walk and we shop And we push and we wait and we swipe and we drop A sale on paint brushes…JUST 12.95! Our basic necessities identified “For a limited time!” “This is a must buy!” Our video/radio world has been fried The fifty fifth lady cashier has just died   Our basic necessities eat us alive

Final Hour Sun slips past you wood brace water sink swell bend crash calming lake-side churning river turning ocean sudden regret Tidal Wave Forms In The Distance panic ensues  self-subsistence crack spring snap swell all hands on deck brace hold sails down sinking shipwreck ocean swallows sailors at sea bodies rise up in the debris